I'm surely forgot about y'all, lovely angels.

Long time no update ^^
I'm really busy last year, couldn't even touch the laptop. So many pressure in study.
Moushiwake gozaimasu ( I'm deeply apologize )

Things happen.
Again, there's never ending topic in my blog, right? hahaha.
I met someone online like my previous some guys I like.
He was gentle, he chase me, but I didn't gave in.
Lastly I told myself maybe I should try out to be with him so I did. 

And yeah, he was a nice guy, we actually rp a lot. But that one day I was so emotional, he got really worried. I need some attention but he wasn't there, he ran away.

I tried to overcome my problem and comfort him.

That moment I realized...

HE WAS THE WRONG GUY D:<

WHAT KIND OF GUY DITCHED A GIRL WHO NEEDS ATTENTION

THAT BIATCH NEED SOME LESSON TO LEARN!

Funny, but I stayed with him.

And another thing came to me like someone threw a rock to my head.

And someone just stabbed my heart with an arrow.

"I don't like fat girls, they don't suit with me"

Tbh, I'm kinda chubby but an active girl.

That was really hit me deeply.

Like for real.

It hurts.

It was when I was on my vacation, I chatted with him.
He looks like he dislike me already.
He didn't treat me like he used to.
He told there's a girl flirted with him.
He couldn't refuse.

THAT'S WHAT HE SAID

I got really jealous, mad and upset.
My chest was tightening, it's really painful.
I just gave up, but I still stay.
I told him just ignore her. It seems like he enjoyed. 

It was morning, we were lacking our confidence. I knew he really not interested in me anymore.
I said to him, for the sake of my studies this year, I'm gonna deactive the account.

"I'll see you after a month."

But the next day, I felt something was not right. I active my account and I found myself that he removed his relationship status... to single.
My heart was heavy, I can't breath right.
My chest was tightening again, felt really heavy.

I didn't felt like crying.

I was angry.

Guess what? After a month, I finally active and I stalked him.
He already had another girl.
Fcking biatch!
After another few months, he changed girls.
HAH! LOVE AIN'T FOR YOU, SWEET HEART.
That's what you should deserve!

But I did sent him a few messages after what he did to me, pretending that I cared for him so much due to his " heartbreaking moment " LOL.
Wasn't my intention.  HA HA HA!

He said, he missed our rp. He missed our moment.
AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FER DAT!
And then, this one time I saw he found another girl and I blocked him once again.

I declare that I finally, completely, 100% moved on!
That's where I met... another guy CIA CIA CIA xDDD

I'll tell y'all about him in another posts.
Stay tuned c: